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Silence: The Loudest Sound

by Veronia
Original post by Becoming Fully Alive blog site

In a world that is so noisy, silence has become such an alien.

Noise shadows our thoughts, suffocates our senses and shuts up our hearts.

I am no longer able to live in the present moment. I am no longer able to know reality, to live my reality.

Noise imprisons us in a cave where we are left alone, with nothing and no one to accompany us.

People pay thousands of dollars for an ideal ‘getaway’ from the noise and busyness of everyday life.

What if I told you, you don’t have to spend thousands of dollars to get away from it all? What if I told you, that silence is within you…

The most central part of us isn’t our brain but our heart: the part that tells us who we really are, who we ought to become, what we long for, our hurts, our fears.

When I choose noise, when I choose to be constantly surrounded by the noise of the television, music, people… but worst of all, when I choose to be surrounded by the noise of my mobile phone.

Yes we can turn our phones to silent, where we can’t ‘hear’ it but there’s a deafening noise our phones make that we aren’t aware of.

I recently discovered this when I made the decision to switch my phone off for a whole entire week in order to practice silence.

Wow.

What a difference.

I realised the constant checking of my phone, that constant ‘go to’ when I have some down time was causing such a disturbance even into the depth of my soul. We have created an entire world through these small devices. We’ve been fooled into the notion that being connected to everyone I know and connected to the rest of the world means I am not living in isolation. We think if we didn’t have our phones we would be completely lost, not knowing what’s going on with our dear ones or what the news is telling us to ‘pray’ for.

I recognised my phone made some sort of internal noise; a screeching noise that deafened my internal ears and my inner heart. I was tricked into thinking that I was living in the present moment, as I would browse through the ‘current’ events. In reality I was living in a trapped world, where there was no past, present or future. The present moment, the now was slipping away from me, blinding me from who I am and suffocating my ability to interact with my environment and grow.

I was no longer aware of what was before me; the present moment that testifies to my being was gone.

I was disabled.

I was unable to love who was with me in that present moment. I was unable to engage in the nature around me. I was unable to grow to a fountain of life.

This deep piercing noise caused a division between my mind and my heart. It muted the ache in my heart and I became numb to what was truly hurting and tormenting me. I did not know what my heart was yelling out to me. I knew my heart was sick, but how sick? What was causing my heart to ache?

What is the remedy for this?

Silence.

Silence is the absence of noise that surrounds us along with an interior state, which takes us to the presence of God.

Silence leads us towards the centre, the human heart; the throne of God.

Silence liberates us from the enslavement of the past and the future.

Even when I am not occupied with something physical in my hand, half of the time I am either thinking of the past and the other half I am thinking about the future.

Silence cannot merely be read or talked about, but it is to be experienced.

It is lived.

It is a way of life.

When words are forsaken, a new awareness is welcomed.

It is not just simply an ending to words but it makes sense to all that is both spoken and unspoken.

Silence is fullness, not emptiness.

It is not absence, but the awareness of a Presence.

Silence is a way of watching and listening intently to what is happening within us and around us.

It is stopping interiorly and digging into the cellars of the heart.

Silence is a challenge and when we refuse to take up this challenge, we deny ourselves of what we ought to know about ourselves. As a result we live a life less than we are truly called to be. The ultimate sin is not pride; it is the forgetfulness of who we are. This is a great catastrophe.

Do not miss the opportunities of silence that are given to us each new day; a silent moment alone, a walk alone, when we are stuck in traffic, waiting for the bus, a silent moment in the presence of a dear friend. We should be so willing to enter in those times of silence and fathom them.

We are what we do with the silence that is given to us.

At the same time, silence needs to be cultivated.

Silence needs to be given it’s proper time and place in our day. It needs to be practiced.

Silence is almost a paradox in our time as it is perceived as something negative: that quiet person in the corner who doesn’t want to socialise, an ‘awkward’ silence with someone we don’t know very well, or the absence of God’s voice.

But it is in silence where God created.

It is the ambiance and the environment.

The sacred space into which God speaks His Divine Words, both to create the world and to save it from death and corruption.

God spoke life in silence.

God wants to speak in silence today, now, in my very own silence.

I challenge you this week, the holiest week of the year, to put away that which steals your inner silence. Be silent before the Holy One that you may receive His Life, His Power, His Glory, His Blessings and His Majesty.

He has become our Salvation.

Original blog found at – http://becomingfullyalive.com/silence-the-loudest-sound/

The Meek

The Beatitudes Series Part 3

Blessed are the meek for they shall inherit the earth

by Rebecca Kozman

Picture this.

You’re sitting on a hill in the middle of a little village overlooking the Sea of Galilee, looking up at Christ on a mountain preaching something called the Beatitudes. You live in a time where there is no understanding of weakness or meekness. No, this is a time where there is more of an understanding of power, a world ruled over by Caesar’s. A world where armies made the people subject to their sheer force. This is a world that turns on the tables of power. This is a world where the powerful were the ones that “inherited the earth.”

So if you’re a villager, living in a time that only cares about power and authority, why should you even bother to care about Christ’s preaching? Why should you care about inheriting the earth if it only goes to the powerful? The message Christ shares regarding this beatitude is preached within a context. He’s not preaching to the rich and powerful, He’s not preaching to the people that had the ability to make a phone call to make something happen. He is preaching to villagers, a simple class of people.

Christ is saying to the simpletons, ‘If you’re a meek person, not only will you be happy, but you’ll have the type of life, the type of power, that transcends that of Caesar.’ Every time Jesus preaches a sermon, He’s not just preaching to our life in this world, He’s preaching to something greater. I don’t know about you, but I’m convinced that those who inherit the earth are sometimes those whose stories are never known on the earth. One day, when we’re standing in Heaven, don’t be surprised to find out that the little person sitting on the hill was the unlikely character God used to change history.

So it all sounds nice and dandy to be meek so we can inherit the earth, but what does being ‘meek’ even look like? The Cambridge English Dictionary defines ‘meek’ as being quiet, gentle, without resentment. The Biblical understanding of being meek is best defined in Psalm 37. Let’s put together a portrait of a meek person using this allusive psalm;

Verse 5 tells us that a meek person puts their trust in God, trusting He will work for them when others oppose them with their authority.

Commit your way to the Lord,
Trust also in Him,
And He shall bring it to pass.
⁶He shall bring forth your righteousness as the light,
And your justice as the noonday.

Going into verse 7 we find that a meek person is still before God and waits patiently for Him.

⁷Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for Him;
Do not fret because of him who prospers in his way,
Because of the man who brings wicked schemes to pass.

Not only that, but they don’t fret themselves over the wicked who get in their way and they refrain from anger.
⁸Cease from anger, and forsake wrath;
Do not fret—it only causes harm.

⁹For evildoers shall be cut off;
But those who wait on the Lord,
They shall inherit the earth.

And finally, King David says, “The meek shall inherit the earth, and shall delight themselves in the abundance of peace” (sound familiar?). If we backtrack and take a look at verse 9 it says, “Those who wait for the Lord shall possess the land.” The portrait of meekness begins by trusting God. Then it commits its way to the Lord in His confidence, and it waits patiently and quietly, not giving way to anger when faced with opposition and power.

With this in mind, what effect does Jesus want this promise to have on the followers? He wants the promise to give them strength to continue in their meekness, that what is seen as weakness by the world is strength in the Lord. The promise of the inheritance of the earth to the meek was intended to strengthen the meek to endure when times get tough. The natural human inclination is to defend one’s self; fight for your rights. But there is blessing (i.e. beatitude) in the one that meekly refrains.

All things are yours, “whether Paul of Apollos or Cephas or the world or life or death or the present or the future, all are yours; and you are Christ’s; and Christ is God’s” (1 Cor. 18-23). You don’t need the vain pleasures of this world because God has already made you an heir of the world. The quietness and openness and vulnerability of meekness is a very beautiful yet painful concept. It goes against all that we are by our sinful nature. It requires supernatural help. And that help is available, thank God!

Christ is Our Man

Christ is Our Man

Adapted from a sermon by Fr Daniel Fanous

John 5:1-18

“When Jesus saw him lying there, and knew that he already had been in that condition a long time, He said to him, “Do you want to be made well?” (John 5:6)

Christ stood there observing the paralytic man. He observed his helplessness, his condition, his loneliness. Therefore, He approaches him and says, “Do you want to be made well?” This is one of the healing miracles in the gospel of John where Christ takes the initiative. He doesn’t wait to be asked.

The man responds, “I have no man to put me in the water.” St John Chrysostom contemplates on this says, “What can be more pitiable than these words? What more sad than these circumstances? Do you see a heart crushed through long sickness? Do you see all violence subdued?”

This paralytic man has no one. He doesn’t have a single person to help him; no friends or family. He stands on the edge of the pool knowing that if he enters when the angel stirs the pool, he will be made well. We don’t know how long he was by the pool but we know that he had been a paralytic for 38 years.

He was surrounded by a multitude of people, many that could have been touching him, yet he had no one. He belonged to no one. It was likely his own family abandoned him, otherwise they would have waited beside him and took him down to the water. If he was paralytic for 38 years, it was probably a congenital disease and thus, rejected from a young age.

Truly when he says, “I have no man,” it was a reflection of the 38 years he spent alone. Fr. Alexander Schmemann contemplates saying;

“This truly is the cry of someone who has come to know the terrible power of human selfishness, narcissism. Every man for himself. Looking out for number one. All of them, all that great multitude of blind, sick, paralyzed, are all “waiting for the troubling of the waters,” in other words, waiting for help, concern, healing, comfort. But…each waits by himself, for himself. And when the waters are troubled, each throws himself forward and forgets about the others… From the gospel’s point of view, this pool is of course an image of the world, an image of human society, a symbol of the very organization of human consciousness.
But even when someone has apparently overcome personal selfishness, he is still held prisoner by the category “his.” He may have overcome bondage to himself as an individual, but then it is “his” family, and for “his” family, since “charity begins at home.” If not family, then “his” ethnic group or country. If not this, then “his” social class, “his” political party. His, always his! And this “his” is invariably opposed to someone else’s, which by definition becomes alien and hostile. We’re told that this is how the world works, what can you do? But is this really true, is this really the ultimate, objective, and scientific truth about the person and human life?

Listening to these words, “I have no man,” is a cry of a feeling of everyone looking to themselves, or their own family, or their own friends. One thing I have noticed about this current crisis is that people look to themselves. People are concerned over amenities and supplies for themselves or their own home, family, businesses. People are hoarding and barricading themselves, creating borders between them and everyone else. Even nations are looking out for only their own.

In almost every phone call, every confession, every thought, the focus is on ourselves and our own. This is understandable because the nature of this disease is contact, we want to avoid touching others. We are fearful to protect our own. This is also a challenge for us, a chance to understand the words, “I have no man.” For each of us is concerned for our own – our own family, our own friends, and not anyone else.

He cries out, “I have no man,” and yet Christ saw him. We read, “He observed him” – He thought about him, He wondered about him. For 38 years no one saw him, and maybe just as remarkable; “I have no man.” In Greek, “I have no Anthropos,” which translates, “I have no human being.” No one around him acted as a human being. Each looked to themselves or their own.

These words are the exact same words Pontius Pilate when he presents Jesus before the people. He puts Christ before them and says, “Behold, the man;” “the Anthropos.” Christ is the One True Human Being. He is the One that sees beyond Himself. He is the One Man that sees beyond His own. None of us – just as no one around the paralytic was a human being – each of us sees ourselves or at best, our own. But Christ is that Man that sees beyond Himself. He sees him, and He is the Man for the paralytic.

He says to him, “I am your Man, I live, I breath, I move and have become flesh for you. You are my people, you are my concern. You have no one and yet you have Me.”

Christ enters his suffering and bears his suffering. He not only sees him but He is present with him. As followers of Christ – Christians – we are called to become human beings to the world that cries out, “I have no man.”

St Dionyius, bishop of Alexandria in 250-260 AD, wrote of an epidemic that decimated the population after the war. 60 years before this there was outbreak of a disease that was most likely small pox that killed one third of the population. He writes of the pagans;

“At the first onset of the disease, they pushed the sufferers away and fled from their dearest, throwing them into the roads before they were dead and treating unburied corpses as dirt, hoping thereby to avert the spread and contagion of the fatal disease; but do what they might, they found it difficult to escape.”
He contrasts, “Most of our brother-Christians showed unbounded love and loyalty, never sparing themselves and thinking only of one another. Heedless of the danger, they took charge of the sick, attending to their every need and ministering to them in Christ, and with them departed this life serenely happy; Many, in nursing and curing others, transferred their death to themselves and died in their stead. The best of our brothers lost their lives in this manner, a number of presbyters, deacons, and laymen winning high commendation, so that death in this form, the result of great piety and strong faith, seems in every way the equal of martyrdom.”

The focus was not on how unfair this epidemic was, no on the lost family, or lost business. Their focus was the chance to give themselves to those around them. Like Christ, we observe and see others. Like Christ, we are there for those that are not our own, especially for those that cry out, “I have no man.”

One historian contemplates on this event and infers that this was the reason that many Romans became Christian; not because of miracles, preaching or political influence, but the response of the Christians to those in need. The irresistible love for the world.

This is very hard for us all, especially when caring for others may mean that we contract the disease. While we should not be reckless concerning these things, our eyes should always be on others. When shopping, who are we buying food for? Why not our elderly neighbour?

As things become worse, we don’t further barricade ourselves. We become more radical in caring for others. St Anthony the Great says, “Our life and our death is with our neighbour. If we gain our brother, we have gained God, but if we scandalise our brother, we have sinned against Christ.” How we treat our neighbours is our life and death. This discerns Christians from non-Christians. Our concern, our care and love for those that are not our own. Let us look beyond ourselves, our own cares, our own families, our own churches even.

Let us be Christ to those that say, “I have no man,” see them, love them, just as Christ did. Even in the depths of our suffering, Christ is that Man and we should likewise be that man for others.

Best Friends Forever

Best Friends Forever

By Demiana Salib

“Come on, Abanoub, it’s time to go.” I watch this priest finish tying up his shoes and walk out of the church of the Holy Sepulchre… alone. Was he talking to Abanoub, as in THE Saint Abanoub? Was I looking into things too much because I was expecting to see miracles being in Jerusalem? Very likely. But how cool would it be? Chilling in Jerusalem, the holiest of lands, with Saint Abanoub as your guide?

This isn’t as far-fetched as it sounds, but it does take effort. We read about the blessed friendships that existed between Tamav Ereeny and Abu Sefain or Pope Kyrillos VI and St Mina. The ones that seemed destined for sainthood even while still on earth.

But what about us? Why would a saint want to be friends with me? I have nothing to offer a great saint. Our typically friendships are based on a healthy give/take balance. With the saints, there is nothing I feel that I can give to them. Despite this, there is something about our human states, that makes the saints want to befriend us, similar to a mentor or older sibling.

Throughout the history of time, we see the heavenly guiding those on earth. When Isaiah stood in the presence of God, he was immediately drawn to repentance. Not because of his sins, but because of whose presence he was in. It was at this moment that the Holy Spirit implored him to uncover his sinfulness before the Almighty. He says;

“Woe is me, for I am undone! Because I am a man of unclean lips, And I dwell in the midst of a people of unclean lips;
For my eyes have seen the King, The Lord of hosts.”

The awareness of his sinful state did not draw him to despair but to joy at the grace and mercy that comes to the repentant. He goes on to say;

Then one of the seraphim flew to me, having in his hand a live coal which he had taken with the tongs from the altar. And he touched my mouth with it, and said:
“Behold, this has touched your lips;
Your iniquity is taken away,
And your sin purged.”

Through repentance, the heavenly hosts came to him to lift him up from his sin. For in any trials or tribulations that are given over to God, the heavenly come to the aid of us all. Prayer is not a quick fix to all our problems, but when praying with a repentant and contrite heart, we are elevated about all worldly concerns. The heavenly look upon this state with joy at the return of another one of Christ’s beloved children. When in communion with the heavenly, things are put into perspective; we look to the eternal and not the temporal. Isaiah was therefore, made clean and in turn, a vessel for God’s light to the nations. He goes on to say;

Also I heard the voice of the Lord, saying:
“Whom shall I send,
And who will go for Us?”
Then I said, “Here am I! Send me.”

For Isaiah, the strength that was given through the Seraphim that touched his lips gave him assurance he needed to commence his quest. The spiritual path is not one that we could ever do alone. We were meant to be in communion with those around us, especially the heavenly.

Father Lazarus El Antony says,

“Your prayers, your calling on the name of God, of Jesus, of St Mary, of St Anthony, of any saint, the saint which is closest to you – they will help you. The holy ones will help you.
We are not alone, this is not an empty place. How can I live here by myself on my own power? I cannot. Before I became a monk I was used to a sedentary life: I was a lecturer in university, I was never going outside of my car and my office and my house and here I am living in the mountain – how can this be? Not by my power, but by the help of the witnesses who are around me, the holy ones who help me to support me…these falls remind me, that I am in the hands of the holy ones.
And I advise all Christian youth, to put their lives in the hands of the holy ones who are around them; to hold them up, to support them.”

The best thing about friendship with the saints is that they choose you. They want to know you. They see something in you. The saints see your struggle, they understand and they want nothing more than to bring you back to Christ in repentance. A great way to figure out who your saint is, is to start reading some of their stories. Read the Synaxarium, find your saint!

There is a humility in pursuing a friendship with someone on a higher spiritual level, similar to our own spiritual guides. While humility is a complex thing, the saints would keep us grounded. They give something to strive for every day. For every time you think you did okay, the saints did better. For every time you didn’t do well, they were born the same and they had the same struggles. They overcame so that they could guide us to the means of repentance. In a world full of doubt and uncertainty, a friendship with the saints can relieve the associated anxiety. Your only quest now is to choose from the multitude of amazing saints…

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Do You Want Coronavirus to Go Away?

Do You Want Coronavirus to Go Away?

Adapted from a sermon by Fr Mark Basily

John 5:1-18

Take a moment to think about this question – do you want coronavirus to go away? You may be thinking, “what a silly question, of course we want it to go away. Isn’t it obvious?”

We witness a scene of devastation in the gospel reading of the paralytic man; similar to what we see in the world today. St John describes it as, “a great multitude of sick people, blind, lame, paralyzed” (Jonh 5:3). They’re all lying there by a pool which is situated next to the gate.

The gate was the sheep gate where the sheep would enter on the way to be slaughtered for the Passover. By the gate was a pool so that they could be washed before they were taken to the Temple for slaughter. Because there was a direct link between the pool and the Temple, it was considered to be holy water.

The people thought they would be healed when it was stirred and given power.

We have a scene set around a multitude of sick people but then the story hones in on one person, a man paralysed for 38 years. He was probably in the worst state, all the more reason for Christ to focus on him.

Christ approaches him, a man that had been paralysed for 38 years, and asks him a question; “do you want to be made well?”

What a silly question, of course he wants to be made well. Why ask a question like that?

The gospels are not just historical stories or events, the gospel is for our lives. Our own personal encounters with Christ. The gospel takes these stories and puts them in the midst of our lives. So the question we can take from this is – do you want coronavirus to go away? This is the question that Christ asks the paralytic man.

We know that Christ would not ask a silly question. Everything He did had a profound purpose. Why did Christ ask this question?

When I was ordained a priest, I had to go to Egypt for my ordination. When I arrived in Egypt, I met Anba Bakhomious just before the liturgy began for the ordination and he looked me in eyes and asked, “are you prepared to be a priest?”

I replied, “Yes, Your Grace, by your prayers.”

He raised his voice and asked again, “are you prepared to be a priest?”

Again I said, “umm yes, by your prayers.”

Then he became visibly angry and he shouted, “Are you prepared to be a priest? Yes or no?”

So I said, “yes.”

And he replied, “good.”

It seemed like an obvious question. I’ve resigned, I’m here, I travelled from Australia to Egypt, so I was prepared. But he was asking in the sense of – Do you realise the consequence of what you are entering?

Do you realise what will be required of you?

Do you realise the sacrifices necessary?

Do you realise that you will lay down your life to others?

Do you realise what you are embarking on?

Are you ready?

It is for that reason that Christ asks the question, “do you want to be made well?”

Are you ready to be made well? No longer will you lie here. No longer will you rely on others to feed you. Are you ready to stand, to walk to carry your bed, to work? Are you ready for the consequences and responsibilities of healing?

The climax is when Christ finds him again and says, “See, you have been made well. Sin no more, lest a worse thing come upon you.”

We see the link that Christ puts between disease and sin. It’s not clear whether this man’s sin led to his disease or if it were the other way around. What is clear is that there was a link between disease and sin and part of his physical healing was to sin no more, and restore his spiritual health.

“For since for the most part when the soul is diseased we feel no pain, if the body receive though but a little hurt, we use every exertion to free it from infirmity, because we are sensible of the infirmity, therefore God oftentimes punishes the body for the transgressions of the soul, so that by means of the scourging of the inferior part, the better part also may receive some healing.”
St John Chrysostom

Christ after healing the paralytic finds him again so that he can complete the healing, the spiritual healing. In the NKJV, we read, “see you have been made well.” In the other translations, it reads, “see you have been made whole.”

You are now complete, physically and spiritually whole. We see the ultimate responsibility of healing – repentance.

Do you want coronavirus to go away? There are many ways that the world is responding to coronavirus; social distancing, closures, lockdowns, self-isolation, closing borders. They’re all good measures.

Other measures include prayer. Even the prime minister said his prayer knees were getting a good workout. There is another measure beyond this that some people are putting in place. I believe this is the most effective measure. The measure of repentance. Do you want to be made well? Do you want coronavirus to go away? Let us repent. Let us sin no more. If God sees us all repenting what would He do?

“If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.”
2 Chronicles 7:14

We implore God’s mercy to heal our land, to heal our world by giving Him our repentance.

The scariest thing about corona is that our actions affect everybody else. If we are infected and we don’t self-isolate, it effects everyone around us through the ripple effect. Our actions affect others. If a virus can do that, repentance can do the same, more even. My repentance has a ripple effect on the world and on God’s heart.

What did I do?

What did I do?

by Marcus Mikhail

What did I do, Lord to deserve Your grace?

To earn Your favour and know that You are preparing a resting place

What did I do, Lord? I’m so undeserving

But thanks to Your Son, You have made me worthy and given me Your word unswerving

What did I do, Lord to deserve Your love;

That You would shower me with gifts from above?

I love You, Lord because You loved me first I cannot contain it,

I feel like I will burst!

What did I do, Lord to deserve Your salvation?

To be in an everlasting relationship with You because of Your incarnation

As the deer pants for the water, so my soul longs after You

You love me so much dear Lord, nothing can undo

What did I do Lord to deserve your heavenly gifts?

Even though I’m prone to wander and my love for You drifts

My cup runs over; it’s truly amazing

To see my life unfold with Your special blessing

What did I do, Lord to deserve Your protection?

You are our shield, our defender because of Your affection

You care about us so much indeed this is true

No wonder You asked us to cast our cares upon You

Your word is so powerful sharper than any double-edged sword

We understand Your mind through it; it draws us closer to thee, sweet Lord

It has the power to change us, to mould us into the image of Your Son

It lifts us up when we feel like we are overrun

In prayer, we praise and thank You and put before You our hearts desire

It brings us closer to You and sets our hearts on fire

We can come to You at any place and at any time

You are always listening to us and Your presence makes us shine

You are so faithful, Lord; Your promises have never failed

Even when I was the one who bailed

Time and time again you have proven your faithfulness

You’ve helped me throughout my whole life in failure and success

Help me to hold onto You, You are worthy of all glory and praise

Draw us closer to you so we are in tune with you always

I truly don’t deserve You, Lord

I’ve failed You time and again

But with You I have nothing to lose and all to gain

The Poor in Spirit

The Beatitudes Series: Part 1

Blessed are the poor in Spirit for theirs is the Kingdom of Heaven

by Karin Zaki

The beatitudes. We read them in Matthew 5 and pray them in the 6^th hour of the Agpeya, but what do they actually mean to me? How do I become poor in spirit?

Let’s start off by defining the term ‘Beatitude.’ It comes from a Greek word ‘makariotita’ meaning blessedness. St Gregory of Nyssa teaches that,

“beatitude is a possession of all things held to be good, from which nothing is absent that a good desire may want.”

Now let’s explain the setting. In Matthew 5, Jesus is giving a sermon on the mountain presenting the life principles necessary to achieve a perfect Christian life. Rather than starting with a list of ‘do’s and don’ts,’ He begins to attract the people to the righteous way of living by revealing their eternal rewards. St Augustine says,

“As long as we love to see the rewards, we have to continue the struggle to attain them. Let us be kindled in our eager work to obtain them.”

So what does ‘poor in spirit’ actually mean?

Usually the poor have nothing of their own and constantly ask for assistance/aid. They are not ashamed to admit that they receive their simple sources of sustenance as gifts from others. Similarly, the poor in spirit have nothing of their own, God gifts all their talents, family, friends, community and spiritual/earthly wealth. It is when one comes to the realisation that without God, they are nothing. Simply put, it is to be, ‘humble and contrite in heart’ (St John Chrysostom).

We all know that the beginning of all sin is pride, acting according to our own personal will with complete disregard to God’s will, as Timothy says, “lest being puffed up with pride he fall into the same condemnation as the devil.” (1 Tim 3:6)

Logically, the opposite of pride is humility, so why then use the term ‘poor in spirit’ and not ‘humble in spirit?’

St John Chrysostom in his Homily, beautifully explains that the term ‘poor’ means “awestruck, and tremble at the commandments of God,” as Isaiah states in chapter 66 verse 2, “But on this one will I look: On him who is poor and of a contrite spirit, And who trembles at My word.” St John then goes to explain two types of humility; humility according to one’s own measure and humility with all “excess of lowliness.” The perfect example of this is the story of the Pharisee and the tax collector in Luke 18:10-14. Here St Luke pictures a man (the Pharisee) who is pleased with himself for complying by what he thinks are the ‘requirements’ of religion. He is proud of himself and humble in his own eyes only. Sadly, he has falsified what it means to be religious. He has reduced the understanding of a spiritual relationship with God to a mere checklist of external ‘religious’ actions, such as the amount of riches he gives to the temple, as a measure of his piety. On the other hand, the tax collector displays genuine humility and it is this act of “excess of lowliness” that justifies him before God. This second type is that which develops into spiritual poverty.

Unfortunately, the world we live in assumes that everyone can achieve anything by themselves and even portrays God as a gift bearer for one’s good deeds. Contrarily, display of humility be it in individual, communal or corporate situations is seen as a sign of weakness and a hindrance to reaching your maximum potential. In that way, we live in a society that constantly instils self-glorification and a sense of pride in us. It is therefore essential to always give thanks to God “on every occasion, in every condition and for all things,” for thanksgiving is the first step to humility since it is the realisation that all I do/don’t have is from God.

From an engineering perspective, the spirit is like a high-rise building. To reach the heavens, this building will need to be quite high and so would require a very deep and heavy foundation set in stable rock. This foundation is modesty and submission. If this modesty was taken away, despite how high the spiritual building has been built, it will collapse with quite deplorable consequences. This is captured in Proverbs 24:27 where it says, “Prepare your outside work, make it fit for yourself in the field; and afterward build your house.” That is, first you need to prepare your ‘field’ by admitting your sense of pride and with prayer, earnestly working to thank God in all things submitting to His will. It is only when thanksgiving and humility in submission become an instinct to every situation, that your poverty in spirit continues to rise till it attains the kingdom of Heaven.

Glory be to God. Amen

The Absolute Truth

The Absolute Truth

by Daniel Rafla

One of the most sought-after objects in the world, the most desirable form of knowledge. Truth. Humanity itself revolves around what is true – in friendship, love, success, happiness, strength, etc. You could literally qualify the highest level of attaining any one concept or virtue by referring to it as true. Pontius Pilate himself upon questioning the Lord Christ

“Pilate therefore said to Him, “Are You a king then?” Jesus answered, “You say rightly that I am a king. For this cause I was born, and for this cause I have come into the world, that I should bear witness to the truth. Everyone who is of the truth hears My voice.” Pilate said to Him, “What is truth?” ” John 18:37-38

Winston Churchill comments, “The truth is incontrovertible. Malice may attack it, ignorance may deride it, but in the end, there it is.” (Churchill, 1916) Yet no one has ever quite been capable of summing up the mere impact of the truth better than the words of Christ,

“ ‘Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.’ ” (John 8:32)

This appears to be a fairly universally known quote, and it can be commonly found in film, music and books. We ourselves, in order to teach the importance of the truth to children, refer to this one verse constantly, that we can create a definitive link between the truth and peace. The irony is that the true impact of truth is itself difficult to measure, and difficult to quantify. That said, I wonder – if the impact of the true means of something is to an individual seeking it can be immeasurable, then what if we were to consider the absolute truth.

The word absolute is rooted from the Latin word Absolutus meaning freed and unrestricted, however the modern understanding of the word is that it is all encompassing, that something being absolute becomes the measure of the thing it contains. Consider for a moment the mathematical symbol of absolute |X|

I want you to now begin to visualise the way in which these two bars actually not only surround that “X” but they are the literal boundary that contains and transforms whatever is inside of it to a positive number.

Now into the rabbit hole we go, as I now begin to delve into an absolute truth that I’ve meditated over during the period of the Great Lent and even into the Holy week of Pascha, rather He who is the absolute truth, Jesus. There can be found no better summary, nor better wording than what He did speak on when He said, “I am the Way, the Truth and the Life.” When Pilate asked his question, he did not know that He was speaking to the answer, though I feel that there is many complications around why He said that, especially as He was responding to Thomas asking Him about the things to come, I will however choose to focus on why He referred to Himself as the truth. As I have said above, truth is something we all seek in various aspects of life – things which we can know that Christ has perfected in His life on Earth. Furthermore, we know that in Christ we have life, and that anyone who places themselves in Christ, and allows God to surround them, transformation to their positive form is attained. No matter the value within the absolute bars, it is transformed. Likewise, when Christ envelops any one person, you can be assured that this person, no matter how great or small, will certainly find themselves in the light, no matter how dark they previously were.

Brothers and sisters, the impact of absolute truth is that it is transformative, for the absolute truth is Christ Himself.

The Gift of Failure

The Gift of Failure

By Monica

Original post by Becoming Fully Alive blogsite

Six years.

“You’ve worked so hard.”

“You deserve it, God will bless you.”

“Do your best and God will do the rest.”

I have been here, untangling the knots. Untangling the idea that God’s love means He will carry you to every success. Shaking off every ‘I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.’

I write to you today in the knowledge that, God loved me so much that He let me fail. The struggle from bitter to better, from self-deprecation to self-compassion, that is leading me through a journey of acceptance, so that the image, or who I ought to be, can greet who I really am.

To acquire the mind of Christ means to learn to see myself as He sees me. Sometimes, we think that if we beat our chests hard enough, if we beat ourselves hard enough, it will make us humble. But the truth is the opposite. The truth is, real humility is recognising who we really are. It is the courage to hear a greater Voice call us His beloved, His successful sons and daughters.

Failure has been a gift; a very revealing gift. Acquiring the mind of Christ means recognising in the mirror the person who met their suffering with bitterness and despair. I had read many spiritual books about suffering, that I expected to wake up joyful the next morning. But this is no synaxarium story.

I found that, I was not all who I thought I was, “Then we will no longer be infants tossed back and forth by the waves, and blown here and there by every wind” Ephesians 41:4, and that I was literally tossed by this wind.

So, failure has been a door, a door of repentance, so that He can recreate me from the ashes of this fire.

“we must lay before Him what is in us, not what we ought to be in us”- C.S Lewis

Failure helps us shake off the veil of perfection, that we may stand honestly before Him. Failure allows us to grow in compassion for ourselves and for others who are struggling; because we remember how hard things have been for us.

“Joseph was with God and he was successful” has never rang so true, because often we focus on the gift not the gift-Giver. In the story of the wedding of Canaan we rejoice at the new wine, but we completely miss that in providing the wine, Christ was declaring Himself the Bridegroom, fulfilling the messianic prophesies in Hosea, Songs of Solomon and Isaiah.

If I have the courage to see myself, I will learn to recognise Him in me. If I have the courage to relentlessly stay with Him, to not run from Him, that makes me successful.

Original blog found at – http://becomingfullyalive.com/the-gift-of-failure/

Does God Care?

Does God Care?

By Demiana Salib

Does God really care about me – what coronavirus will do to my life? If coronavirus has put my education or career on hold? One answer to this would be no, salvation is what matters and for as long as I get there, it doesn’t matter how I got there. God only cares about my salvation, true? No, and this is the most insulting line of thought we, as humans, have ever conjured.

I have never really understood the parable of the unjust steward (Matthew 6:26-34) but the final message is nice – “He who is faithful in what is least is faithful also in much,” so I’m generally happy to overlook the parable, but nothing our Lord said can be ignorantly overlooked.

Imagine a servant that devoted so much time and effort into the church. Anything that needed to be done, they could do, and in record time, too. But they would go home completely exhausted to the extent that they didn’t have time to pray. They did good, their actions were good, their intentions were good, but they didn’t have a personal relationship with God.

In unusual circumstances, their services began to be taken away from them. They had nothing left. In their distress, they consulted their father of confession;

“Why isn’t He letting me serve, and I know I need to pray, but I was doing good!”

Their father of confession replied, “He’s not letting you serve until you pray. He loves you very much and you need to see that first, spend this time in prayer.”

Could this servant be our modern day unjust steward? If I continually serve but do not pray, am I wasting my Master’s goods? When God asks me to give an account for my stewardship, how will I answer Him? Will it be, “God I spoke to you daily, you were a part of every aspect of my life.” Or will I struggle to even recognise Him?

Jesus spoke this parable to the Pharisees that judged Him for His love for sinners. For they knew the law, they knew how to appear before the people. They thought they could steal the Kingdom in the same way they fooled the people into believing that they were the most righteous of all men. With the recent closure of many churches worldwide, we are faced with a similar reality check. Is my relationship with God based on a fulfillment of commandments and services of the church, or is there more?

Our relationship with God runs so much deeper than set church services and just doing good. Our modern servant did good, but I can’t even guarantee that my outward display comes close to this. I read this parable and get lost at the unjust steward that went to his master’s debtors and told the one that owed 100 measures of oil to give back 50 and to the one that owed 100 measures of wheat to give back 80. This is not good, it’s deceitful and he’s not getting back what his master was owed. Why does the master commend his shrewdness? I feel like he was just digging his own hole deeper out of desperation.

Instead of reading this as an outsider, I need to read it as if I were the unjust steward. My church has been taken away and I need God, so I need to find another way to love and serve Him. For the unjust steward, the thought of his stewardship being taken away from him was the wake-up call he needed to work and act differently because he could not the face the loss. I will do whatever it takes to give back to my God what He is owed. If I can’t spend time with Him in church, I will try to make up for it at home, even if I think it will not measure up.

It is no longer a matter of, “Does God care?” but “God, I need You to care,” and He does; “Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?” (Matthew 6:26)

If I think that God does not care about me, that is not a reflection of Him, but a reflection of me. While I am caught up in life, He is still caught up in me, if there is any consolation to coronavirus, it is the time it has forced me to spend with my Beloved. The ones that love you are the ones that gets excited by what makes you excited, the ones that are sad when you are sad, the ones that are happy when you are happy. How could you ever question that your loved ones cared about you? God is greater than these! If I go to work, come home – a standard day, but it is all I can offer in conversation, God wants to hear it, He wants to know how my day went, He cares about all the little things.

Whenever I have thought that God doesn’t care, I can’t recall ever asking Him honestly for His opinion. If my prayers are surrounded on one external factor, He will respond kindly; “My grace is sufficient for you, do not worry.” If it causes sadness, grief, anguish, distress, then He will shift my focus to the eternal. If I want Him just as Saviour from this world that causes me pain, then I won’t see His concern for the little things.

But God starts small, He is faithful in the little, if you want Him as Father, Friend, Biggest Fan, He will be all those things, too. He loves you with an everlasting love and will do anything to have a meaningful relationship with you.

Once we have daily and meaningful conversation with Him, everything is in His Hands without question. And then we can truly say when faced with this larger scale pandemic, “He who is faithful in what is least is faithful also in much.” There may be so many things that are taken away from us, but we will do whatever it takes to keep building our relationship with God and serving those in need. We can’t have big answers to big questions if we don’t start small, start now, even if you feel there is no relationship and you’re starting out of the desperation. He does care and He will continue to work overtime until we see it. To any doubt that God cares about what is happening to our world, He responds,

“Can a woman forget her nursing child,

And not have compassion on the son of her womb?

Surely they may forget,

Yet I will not forget you.

See, I have inscribed you on the palms of My hands

– Isaiah 49:15-16.