Untold but not Unwritten

Untold but not Unwritten

By Bethany Kaldas


Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed.
And in Your book they all were written,
The days fashioned for me,
When as yet there were none of them
.’

Psalm 139:16

Reading a story is a very different experience to being in one.

When you read a story, you can see all the threads connecting the different events, you can see method behind apparent madness, you can often tell the destiny of a character before it happens to them because you know how the author writes or the genre of the book. If you’re reading a romance, an unexpected knock at the door is intriguing, exciting—if you’re reading a horror story and know the author to be especially sadistic, the same event will raise your blood pressure.

But if you were a character in these tales, you’d see things quite differently. Most of the events are fragmented, things come out of the blue and vanish again, apparently without significance, and the story’s end is always a mystery.

We tend to be more like characters than readers when it comes to our own lives. Even when we do draw connections, try to find meaning in the mundane or the miserable or the marvellous, it’s all guesswork at best. We make decisions, often believing to be informed, but we’ll never know all the factors that will impact the results of our choices. We forge our destinies half-blind and a lot more feeble than we’d like to believe.

We can fight as hard as we can for clarity, but at the end of the day, we’ll never know the future until it becomes the present. Whether we like it or not, we’re characters, not readers and not really authors, of our own stories, and that means we live with more questions than answers.

Being a Christian adds another layer of complexity to the questions we have. Ideally, we’d say that believing in God means that God is active in our lives. He’s not a reader, surely! When we get hit with plot twists and complications, He isn’t going to sit idly by eating popcorn and watching in surprise. He’ll be there. He’ll do something.

Then, when Mary came where Jesus was, and saw Him, she fell down at His feet, saying to Him, “Lord, if You had been here, my brother would not have died.”’

John 11:32

Mary, the sister of Lazarus and Martha, was a woman of faith. She believed that God was with her and her family, and when her brother became ill, I’m sure she had no doubt that Christ could save the day. Otherwise, she wouldn’t have sent for Him to come to them when Lazarus got sick. And any normal person, upon hearing that a dear friend was gravely ill, would rush to their side, especially if there was something you could to help.

Now Jesus loved Martha and her sister and Lazarus. So, when He heard that he was sick, He stayed two more days in the place where He was.’

John 11:56

Did you see that? Jesus hears that Lazarus is sick, his sisters are scared, they need Him to help…and He waits. One might not think Jesus a very good friend, except the writer makes it clear that Christ loved these people, and it was because He loved them that He waited.

We all know how this story ends. We know Jesus raises Lazarus from the dead and that this ends up being one of the most important miracles that He ever performs in His ministry. But Mary and Martha didn’t know that. They didn’t know how their story was going to end, and it’s the not knowing that makes it so much harder to trust.

Relying on God has to begin all over again every day as if nothing had yet been done.’

C. S. Lewis

The truth is, although all of us are confident that God is not merely a reader, most of us see Him as a character. A big, strong character, sure, but a character nonetheless. We can’t see the whole story, only the chapter we’re in, and we seem to think that’s all God can see too. Or at least, that’s how we behave much of the time.

If you truly believe that it is actually God who has brought you to this place, then entrust Him with your cares and cast on Him all your concerns; and He will dispose your affairs as He wills.’

Sts Barsanuphius and John, Letters from the Desert

Perhaps that’s why we seem to think we’ve been abandoned when we feel alone, or that we’re being punished when things go wrong, or that we’ve been forgotten when our prayers are met with silence and heartache. We don’t admit it, but sometimes, when the plot has taken a nasty, unexpected turn, we feel God must’ve been just as surprised as we are—or else, surely it wouldn’t have happened. We see God as the hero—or maybe, sometimes, the villain—of our story, but not the author.

You may fear that the Lord has passed you by, but it is not so: he who counts the stars, and calls them by their names, is in no danger of forgetting his own children. He knows your case as thoroughly as if you were the only creature he ever made, or the only saint he ever loved. Approach him and be at peace.’

Charles Spurgeon

Every day of our lives, our stories are being told. We are living each page, each word, for the first time, completely unaware of what that next paragraph is going to say. But that doesn’t mean it hasn’t been written yet. Even the most cleverly written tales are not mysteries to their authors.

Even when you can’t see where the story is going, He can. And unlike actual book characters, we don’t have to worry about our author being some sadistic psychopath who just likes to watch people suffer for the sake of added drama. We know who our author is. We know He wants the best for us. And unlike Mary and Martha when Lazarus died, we know how the story will end. He told us that the end of this story is only the beginning of a much bigger, much better one. Spoilers, the best kind.

‘…now at last they were beginning Chapter One of the Great Story which no one on earth has read: which goes on for ever: in which every chapter is better than the one before.

C. S. Lewis, The Last Battle

And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying. There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away.’

Revelation 21:4

The key is remembering that the happy ending is coming, no matter how rough the tale itself is, and that the author Himself is on this adventure with us. And if you can find it in you to trust Him, even in the rough passages, you’ll start to see Him more and more in every word.

When I trust deeply that today God is truly with me and holds me safe in a divine embrace, guiding every one of my steps I can let go of my anxious need to know how tomorrow will look, or what will happen next month or next year. I can be fully where I am and pay attention to the many signs of God’s love within me and around me.’

Henri Nouwen

Let God

Inspired by a Fr Daoud Lamei sermon: https://soundcloud.com/madonna_loves_jesus/dbdsuiulfiv3

The person who is used to leaving his life in the hands of God, his salvation itself he leaves in the hand of God. He constantly says to Him;

Lord, I don’t know how to walk in the way of righteousness. I’m scared and wary of judgment day. But I am full of confidence that You’ll be there on the last day and say he’s mine and call me by my name. I have no hope in any other. I have hope Lord, that You will be the one who saves me in these few days on earth, and I also have hope that You will be the one who will save me in the Last day. “Now put down a pledge for me with Yourself. Who is he that will shake hands with me?” Job 17:3. In other words, I won’t let anyone else Lord hold my hand except for You. I won’t let anyone else command me to not be afraid. 

When Peter was walking on the water, he was definitely in a weird and strange situation. As soon as he started drowning he said “Save me, Lord”. So the Lord stretched out His mighty hand and answered him saying “O ye of little faith…” 

Again, Lord, You are my hope, I want no other than You because there is no greater than You. I don’t want a doctor to hold my hand. Not even a lawyer. Nor bank, nor governor nor any person on the face of the earth whatever his status may be, to tell me not be afraid. Only You Lord. 

The first thing that will allow you to live a life of sacrifice is to not expect anything from yourself. Because the more you expect from yourself, the less you will be able to allow God to take the reigns on your life. You are still holding on to the belief that you can do everything without the help of the Almighty. You’re either too confident in yourself or too confident in others and this is what will prevent you from leaving EVERYTHING to Him.

Our God is a jealous and zealous God. He is jealous over you from the snare of others. He begins to slowly take away the people you confide and are confident in and leaves you to think “Okay… who’s left? Or what’s left. Who’s left other than me that you are able to be confident in?” None Lord. So what should you do? Will you leave it to God now or are you still confident in others and in yourself?

Again, “Now put down a pledge for me with Yourself. Who is he that will shake hands with me?” Job 17:3

I cannot even allow my left hand to be put with the right, nor allow anyone to hold my hand. I have no other but you Lord. 

Our issue in living a life of sacrifice and giving our life to God is in our mind. Why? Because it just refuses to stop. We pray “According to your will Lord” and in a matter of moments we take it all back with our actions; as if we never even prayed. As long as you’ve told God that there is something bothering me, leave it to Him and genuinely follow and believe the words “According to Your will O Lord”. Wait so He knows? Of course. Will you then involve yourself in the ways of the Lord and stand in front of His will? 

Do not rethink your prayer after it has been given to Christ. It’s the hardest thing to stop your mind from worrying after you’ve given the prayer to the Lord. Rest assured and do not think of the issue, but leave it to has all the issues in His hand. Unfortunately, when the tribulations and hardships come steaming in, Christ becomes merely a character. The more you think about it, the more you convince yourself how inadequate any solutions is to your hardship. So what’s the solution? Not to be disheartened but to not think about it at all. We look at everything with an earthly eye but the Lord looks at it with a divine and heavenly eye. Easier said than done of course. It needs struggle. That your eye is on the Lord and not on anything else. 

Rest your mind. But to rest your mind you need to rest your heart. 

“Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.” (Philippians 4:6,7). 

Something has to work. Either your heart or your mind. The more your mind is working there is no sacrifice and there is no peace. All you need to do is give it to Him. As soon as He knows, go to sleep. 

Every time we worry, we consider ourselves orphans with no father. And this is an insult to our Heavenly Father. An insult to Him that we worry. He wants to tell us “Am I not here? Have you not seen all that I’ve done for you in the past? Why are you worried about money or about your health? Why do you think about your kids? Are your kids not my kids? 

Leave it to Him

The Countdown out of Lockdown

The Countdown out of Lockdown

adapted from a sermon by Fr Mark Basily


Passage Luke 9:10-17

As we drive around these days, we find empty and deserted streets. Even here at church, it has become empty and deserted during the lockdown.

A very similar scene is witnessed in the Gospel. We see a scene of a deserted place. The disciples had returned from their ministry, eager to tell the Lord what they had done. The Lord, in response, takes them to a deserted place. He did this so that they could spend time with Him and to be alone with Him, free from distraction.

The people hear that the Lord is present in this area and they flock to hear His words. Christ spends all day teaching them and instructing them. They are so immersed in His teaching that they forget what time it is.

The disciples grow concerned and tell Jesus that is time to send them home, for they were in a deserted place. If we picture this scene of a deserted ground, that was dark, probably getting cold, and far from any shops, the natural response would be to send them all home.We know the disciples are probably beginning to feel hungry as they are thinking about where the people will get food. If it is the end of the day, then it is likely that they are tired also. This scene can be compared to our own lives with lockdowns still looming. Deserted. Cold. Dark. This is a time of great need.

This reminds me of the countdown I give my children when I want them to do something. I start counting down from 5. 4. 3. 2.1. And hope that they do what I say before I reach 1.

This countdown has 5 loaves of bread, 4 angels, 3 trees, 2 priests and 1 random.

FIVE LOAVES

The story of the Gospel begins to change with the 5 loaves. The problem was easily solved by our Lord without any assistance. Yet He insisted that the disciples give the people something to eat. Christ should have done it! He’s God. Why does He need the participation of the disciples?

So they say to Him, “We have no more than five loaves and two fish!” (Luke 9:13.

Christ actions clearly say, “that is all I need.”

If those 5 loaves were not present that day, would the people have been fed? Maybe not. For this is the nature of God. He is a Co-Worker with us. He does not like to work in isolation. He wants to use humanity to do His Work. Those 5 loaves were acquired that day for His Work. The start of this scene being transformed was the participation of the disciples in service. Service was the beginning of transformation.

FOUR ANGELS

There was a legend of 4 angels. When God began to create the world, there were 4 angels that came to Him with a question. One angel came and asked the scientific questions, “How are You creating the world?” The second angel asked the philosophical question, “Why are You creating the world?” The third angel asked the self-seeking question, “When You finish creating the world, can I have it?” The fourth angel asked the Christian question, “How can I help You create the world?

As Christians, this should be on all our minds! How can I help the Lord? When we are in scene of devastation and despair and isolation and desertedness. The question for us is not in the divisiveness of the details, but in, “how can I help?” and “what can I offer?” and “how can I support another person?”

THREE TREES

There is another story of three trees. The three trees were talking and the first tree said, “when I grow up and become a really big tree, I want to be cut down and made into lumber to build a large hotel that accommodates for kings.” The second tree said, “when I grow up and become a big tree, I want to cut down and built into lumber that will make huge ships that will sail the oceans.” The third tree said, “When I grow up and become a big tree, people will look up and I would direct them to God.

As time passed, and the trees grew, the first tree was cut down and built into a manger. The first tree complained and complained. This was not what the tree wanted. Until one night, the Son of God was born in this manger. Then the tree was at peace.

The second tree was cut down, and it wasn’t used to build a large ship, but a small boat that was used in the Sea of Galilee. It complained and complained, until one day, our Lord stood on this boat and spoke wonderful words of light. Finally this tree was at peace.

The third tree was cut down and was made into a cross. It complained and complained, surely it could not point people to God when it became a method of execution. Then one day, the Son of God was crucified on this Cross. This tree, too, was at peace.

All these trees had a hope and vision for their lives, but they could not find peace until they were used by God. Our life is exactly like these trees. We will never have peace until God uses us.

TWO PRIESTS

There is a story of two priests. During the last lockdown, Fr Yacoub thought to himself, “I don’t want to be restricted to my house. I don’t want to be cut away from service.” Instead he lived at church. Fr Augustinos prays the early mass daily in the church. During this lockdown, there are restrictions that force certain areas to have a Covid test every 2-3 days if they need to leave the area for work. You would think that Fr Augustinos would cancel his early masses. Instead, he found a solution. He would sleep in the church until lockdown is finished. Nothing prevents or stops service and ministry. We always push forward and find ways to serve, no matter what.

ONE RANDOM

And finally, the story of the one random, that is, you and I. The random is each of us. What am I doing with my life? The 5 loaves and 2 fish story began in a deserted place. The deserted place that we read about in the Gospels became transformed with service. This is how our lives change.

A beautiful story is born when service enters. Our life will always feel empty if we do not have a service or ministry. Service is the flavour of life. If all I’m doing is working and providing for my family; eating, sleeping, enjoying myself then I will never be at peace. Our hands need to be involved in service. Your hands need to be reaching out to those in need. Your heart must be outstretched toward our Lord. Then, there is peace.

The coldness of the world is then replaced with joy. In these days we are living, let us ask ourselves, “what am I doing with my life? How am I serving? I must be doing something.”

Every Sin Covered

Every Sin Covered

Translated from a sermon by Fr Daoud Lamei


Let us give thanks to the gracious and merciful God for He has covered us…

It is God’s will for us to thank Him, and in particular for covering us. How many of us truly acknowledge that God covers us? And what does it mean to be covered?

There are many meanings to covering. Covering us when we are in distress, when we are in danger, when hope is lost. But the most important of these is covering our sins.

Sometimes we overlook that our sins are indeed covered, but if we ask God to continually cover our sin, we remember the price of our sins. Believe me, if we all knew each other’s secrets, no one would be able to love another. No one would have any respect for another.

Who knows all our secrets, all our weakness, all our sin and loves us the same? That is our Lord! Covering us is all in His Nature. He lifts us all up before others, because we are already covered.

The church instils the richness of this phrase from the very start of our prayers – for You have covered us. Only Christ sees all the shame. If people saw even a quarter of the shame of one another, they could not stand to look at one another. How many of us thank God for covering us? For all the sins that were covered, and will be covered so that in the eyes of men there is no sin remaining.

Shouldn’t we thank God for covering us? Think of someone that took the fall for you even just once, would you not feel indebted to that person? How much more should we thank the One that covers all our sin?

For in the time of trouble, He shall hide me in His pavilion

Psalm 27:5

I was like a naked man that finally found covering from the shame of nakedness, this is how the Lord covers my sin. Humankind is always being covered by God. When Adam and Eve committed the first sin and saw their nakedness, God immediately covered them.

He will again have compassion on us, And will subdue our iniquities. You will cast all our sins Into the depths of the sea

Micah 7:19

God stomps on the shame of sin, takes it throws it in the water and it is no more. There is no sin. No matter what it is, it is gone. You will not find it again. We’re happy now that He has paid the price and the sin is gone. No matter the sin or how bad it is. There is nothing left to hold on to with sin. He has mercy, He tramples on our sins and they are gone forever.

When we consider this in light of God’s will – does this now make sense? When we thank Him for everything it is to acknowledge that He covers us. For everything, we have a reason to thank Him. Believe me, you thank Him for the problems, the tribulations, the hardships but above all, we must thank Him for covering us.

Thank God for tribulation and hardships alike. Even though this does not make sense to thank for these things, but through prayer, it makes sense that this is all a gift, a spiritual gift that we are eternally thankful for.

When we give thanks for hardships and tribulations, then we are blessed for these are the most difficult to give thanks for. Those tribulations are what pushed us to go through the narrow gate. Without which, we may not have found it.

For the spiritual being, the hardest time for any person become the most glorious. When I truly believe in this, I can honestly say to my Lord, “I know You are not capable of any wrongdoing and You do not make mistakes. You are the Benefactor, there is no blemish within You. When You give me hardship and tribulation it is for my good. When You don’t answer my prayers the way I want You to, it is even better. When I feel that You are punishing me, that is what is required for my salvation. I could not be saved by any other means.” 

…and this in itself, becomes reason to give thanks.

When the day comes and you feel that He is being harsh, you can look back and remember that this is for your good. He is the physician of our souls and He will do what is best for the human condition. In the end, thanksgiving will be our complete nature, perfected in Him. This is God’s complete will – that thanksgiving in all conditions becomes normal.

There will be trials, but we need to learn how to apply these words in our actions. Every hour that you are awake, thank God at least once. It won’t take a second. With every action, thank God. When you drink water, Thank God. When you get in the car, thank God. When you open the door of your house, thank God. When you get to your destination, thank God. In this, thanksgiving becomes the basis of every action. We begin to see how much of our shame He truly covers, sometimes even before we realise it.

And whatever you do in word or deed, do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through Him

Colossians 3:17

Thanksgiving is the ultimate command. Everything you do and say is covered in thanksgiving.

Climbing the Tower of Virtue

Climbing the Tower of Virtue

Adapted from a sermon by Fr Yacoub Magdy


Psalm 119:1-2, Matthew 18:1-9

The Church Fathers arranged the readings so that every Sunday Gospel is directed towards Jesus. The Gospel points to the Saint of the day for every other day of the week. The attached Psalm generally points to a specific verse of the Gospel.

Blessed are the undefiled in the way, Who walk in the law of the Lord! Blessed are those who keep His testimonies, Who seek Him with the whole heart!

Psalm 119:1-2

When we consider this verse with the topic of the Gospel, we see the disciples discussing who is the greatest among them. The culture of Jews stated that when they sat together, they would sit in order of importance. The one on the far left would be the least important.

The disciples thought they could take this custom and apply it to the Kingdom of Heaven. If this is how they would sit of earth, would they sit in the same way in heaven? Our Lord did not like this question.

Virtue can be compared to the height of a tower. We look the heights of the tower and the greatest of virtue that we wish to attain. Sometimes we forget the foundation of this tower. Christ’s answer to the disciples alludes to the foundation of virtue, upon which, nothing else can prosper.

Assuredly, I say to you, unless you are converted and become as little children, you will by no means enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore whoever humbles himself as this little child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.

Matthew 18:2-4.

Be like children. The foundation of all virtue is found in humbling ourselves as children. If you cannot be like a child, then there is no foundation for virtues.

This is the complete opposite of what the world teaches us. The foundations that are built upon in the world are glory, knowledge and intelligence.

The Lord wants us to begin building by first being as children. How can we do this? Children accept anything that is put before them. Children sit and when they are asked to move, they do not receive this with insult, but do as they are told in obedience.

I prefer to have little knowledge and moderate intelligence and have the innocence of a child, than to have great intelligence and great knowledge so that I feel that I may above others.

Thomas A. Kempis.

What is the foundation for a holy life? Every time I catch myself with a desire to show off my knowledge or status, then I remember that this is the opposite of what our Lord teaches us. We do not ask for great talents from the Holy Spirit but the fruit of virtue that will bring us closer to Christ. Above all is the simplicity of children.

During my ordination, there were another three priests from Australia with me. HH Pope Shenouda III thought it would be good for us to see the monasteries. Some of those ordained with me had been born and raised in Australia and had not seen much of Egypt before. They did not know the culture of monastic life. Pope Shenouda prepared six months of travel around the Egyptian monasteries.

Fr Fanous was one of the monks that was visited during this time. They expected much wisdom and teaching that they would learn from him. They took pens and papers and were prepared to hear from him. Instead, they spent a few hours with him, laughing and playing games. At the end of this, he said that he was busy and had to leave.

The spiritual life is for the simple. Spiritual life does not need to complicated. It does not need great displays of intelligence. Simply, the joy and innocence of children is key to the heart of our Lord.

Why?

Why?

Sermon by Fr Daoud Lamei and can be found on Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/olivia-boles-1/leh-father-dawod-lam3y


Why? There is a common question: why does this happen to me? 

A very hard question indeed. Why do those who are most precious to God get hurt to such a great extent? Why can it not be easier than this? And if it is not as a result of their sins, then why? 

Of course, we have the wisdom of the church fathers with us, however, their answers will always remain incomplete. These questions will not be answered until we enter heaven. When we hear the saying “He will wipe every tear from our eyes”, what does this mean? 

Every tribulation and struggle that you went through in your life will be wiped away by the hand of God. He is the only one in heaven that can tell you why this happened, its benefit, and its value for us. Nothing happened without purpose. 

There won’t be any sadness remaining, or tribulation persisting then. However, here on earth, there has to be sadness and tribulation, even to those most precious to God. God did not lift the pain of the earth but He came Himself and carried it on the cross for us. 

So sometimes even when we don’t have an answer to these hard questions it is enough for us to sit and look at the crucified Christ and you will be strengthened. Even if our minds are not at ease, our hearts are comforted. The mind may not be convinced, no worries, but when you see the Lord Jesus, the holy and pure who truly bore the sins of the whole world and has taken up a burden far greater than any of us, we begin to say “according to your wisdom O’ God, surely You know what you are doing. Surely this tribulation is good for me. Surely You have chosen goodness for us.” 

Jesus did not promise us earthly comfort, however, the true value of a person begins to show when they start to hurt. However, as long as you are still comfortable, you are not a true human, just like the eagle is not an eagle until he begins to fly. 

We often do not experience tribulations apart from those of earthly ones, but there are tribulations above our abilities, and God knows better than anyone the extent of these abilities of ours. He knows what you can handle. 

“Behold, happy is the man whom God corrects; Therefore do not despise the chastening of the Almighty. For He bruises, but He binds up; He wounds, but His hands make whole.

Job 5:17

Lucky is the person whom God pays attention to discipline. Lucky is he who God works tirelessly to correct. When you find someone who is struggling with tribulations, then say within yourself, ‘how lucky!’ However, you may feel and say within yourself, ‘God please protect me from such tribulation and do not let me go through such a thing!’ As you wish, but to your loss! In Heaven, you will remember what you said and truly understand the meaning of how lucky they are.

Let us understand this through the metaphor of a surgeon. The wounds are not random. The wounds from God are meticulously in the hands of God, like from a perfect surgeon who understands. In His discretion, He opens such wounds of hurt, and in time he closes it. But only after fixing up what is inside. In doing so he saves your life. “He wounds, but His hands make whole.” This is the secret of life, without it, one would be damned. 
Then a logical question comes, why then would He hurt? Why open up a wound? Why not just leave us be? Where is the necessity in Him hurting us?

Sometimes God is removing the tares (see Matthew 13 for the parable of the tares). What are these tares? These are negative feelings, a hardened heart, hatred, jealousy, greed, too much attachment to the world, and corrupted relationships. Many things within a person could lead them to hell. These are all tares. To remove these tares, surgery is needed. Sometimes God would wound so we can scream. Is screaming beneficial? At times screaming is exponentially more useful than a laugh. 

The Bible says “woe to you who laugh now, for you shall mourn and weep,” (Luke 6:25) and “Blessed are those who mourn for they shall be comforted,” (Matt 5:4). What does this mean for us?

That the scream of “Have mercy upon me God!” is far greater than the laugh of a man. 

““For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways,” says the LORD.”

Isaiah 55:8 

God loves us and He disciplines His children, but we don’t have to understand everything. And the wise one is he who prays and asks, ‘guide me Lord and grant me understanding.’ What do we do then with God who wounds and makes whole?

The first thing we must do is bear the wound He gives us because we know very well that this is to your benefit. Exactly as you go to the doctor and you suffer a bit because you know it is to your benefit. Bear the wound because afterward, He will heal. After the tribulation, He will bless. If you have lived your life not knowing the meaning of bear, then you cannot be a soldier for God, you cannot be a man with God. Man up and bear the burden so you can feel the hand of God. I say this because it is the same hand that wounds that also heals us.

Don’t push the hand of God, But hold onto it! It is that very hand that will heal the wound that He made! 

We have already agreed that He wounded you to heal you. This is a chance to truly feel the hand of God and cling to it. There is a common mistake that people make when they get upset due to tribulation, they distance themselves from God and so they decide they are not going to pray. Well, that’s up to you, but the wound will remain open. You won’t let God stitch the wound. It’s as if you walk out of a surgery mid-way, you ruin the work of the physician halfway. He was just about to stitch you up and clean you up, but you don’t let him. Please, don’t push the hand of God. One of the hardest things that can pass over one that is in tribulation, is despair. To think that it will never end, to lose hope that anything will change, ‘nothing will change’ they say. 

The tribulation will pass, the sickness will heal, the problem will be solved. The feelings of despair are sometimes much harder than the tribulation itself. Never lose your hope because God will interfere. 

“I waited patiently for the Lord, And He inclined to me, And heard my cry.”

Psalm 40:1 

This, “He inclined to me”, often takes time but it happens, so wait. Do you want to get to a point where you’re made of steel? Where any tribulation, humiliation, poverty, sickness, or sorrow doesn’t affect you. Is that even possible? Yes! But you have to cling to Jesus Christ. When you truly stick to Jesus you tend to feel that everything that is happening to you is happening to Him. He has calculated the situation very well, He has chosen the Cross and the resurrection. Any tribulation, the end of it is Glory.  Stick to Jesus, do this through the Bible, Prayer, communion, consistent repentance, and confession.

“But it is good for me to draw near to God. I have put my trust in the Lord God.” 

Psalm 73:28

“He wounds, but His hands make whole”, bear the wound, hold onto the hand that will heal, cling to the Lord, and wait for healing!

Glory be to God forever, Amen.

Locked Down? Look Up!

Locked Down? Look Up!

By Marc Eskander


July 2021, Sydney Australia. 
Midway through the Apostles Fast. 
It seems like deja vu that we are here again; finding ourselves in the midst of another strict lockdown, tackling the ever-present issue of the coronavirus. 

A year ago, the future looked bright and hopeful. We were emerging from our first major lockdown, new infections were low or non-existent, and it seemed like the worst of it was over. That was partly true, but as the year went on, spikes in infections brought on by lapses in quarantine or infection control would once again bring on restrictions or lockdowns.

Analysing the past 12 months, an interesting pattern emerged (well in Sydney, Aus anyways). These restrictions and lockdowns seemed to occur during major fasts and feasts. 

Lent 2020, Apostles Fast 2020, Nativity Fast 2020, Apostles Fast 2021…

This could very well just be a coincidence since these times also coincide with school holidays, but coincidence or not…one can’t help but wonder if there’s something to pay attention to here. It is interesting to examine the history of our church and especially in its moments of imprisonment and restrictions. 

Undoubtedly the greatest of these is St Paul. He is recorded to have been imprisoned three times, and a bulk of his literary work came during these imprisonments.  It is extraordinary to behold the language in these Epistles when read in the context of someone in chains, beaten, suffering and awaiting execution. On their own, the epistles bring hope and joy to the reader, but they take on a whole different meaning when the context of their author and the surroundings is understood. 

Take the second Epistle to Timothy for example, written near the end of St Paul’s life:

“For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. Therefore do not be ashamed of the testimony of our Lord, nor of me His prisoner, but share with me in the sufferings for the gospel…

To the Colossians:

 We give thanks to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, praying always for you, since we heard of your faith in Christ Jesus and of your love for all the saints; because of the hope which is laid up for you in heaven

Colossians 1:3-5

For this reason we also, since the day we heard it, do not cease to pray for you, and to ask that you may be filled with the knowledge of His will in all wisdom and spiritual understanding…

Colosians 1:9

I now rejoice in my sufferings for you, and fill up in my flesh what is lacking in the afflictions of Christ, for the sake of His body, which is the church

Colossians 4:2

To the Philippians: 

“But I want you to know, brethren, that the things which happened to me have actually turned out for the furtherance of the gospel, so that it has become evident to the whole palace guard, and to all the rest, that my chains are in Christ.

Philippians 4:6

For St Paul, it is evident in his writings here, that his experiences in jail have brought about a deep sense of conviction and spirituality that has emboldened and strengthened not just his own faith, but of those he served. 

When we read a verse such as Phil 4:6 and are commanded to be anxious for nothing, we should understand that this is coming from someone who had the very existence of his life to be anxious for, not a University exam. He could not guarantee his survival the next day. I am not attempting to minimise our problems in the 21st Century, but instead magnify the peace of God. If St Paul, in chains, at times shipwrecked, stoned, beaten, experienced the surpassing peace of God, then we should be confident of the same in our much more comfortable and stable lives. 

Another key feature of St Paul’s writings in this time is the introduction of every writing with thanksgiving and the mention of constant and unceasing prayer. Asceticism, when mixed with solitude, is powerful. A key ingredient of any ascetic practice is focus and attention to what you are doing. In our modern day lives, this is admittedly a difficult thing to achieve. Even St Paul would’ve experienced distractions in his daily ministry; the problems of the churches, his physical ailments and survival, the attacks from enemies etc…in Prison…while they didn’t disappear, he was allowed a time to turn his attention to God, which in turn energised his love for the Church. 

In his unceasing prayer, he found tears and comfort in praying for the faithful. He found fulfilment in rejoicing in his sufferings, knowing that he was participating in the sufferings of Christ for the sake of His Church. He found purpose in his mission, knowing that the chains offered a medium through which he preached the word of Christ. 

It is very clear from the Epistles that St Paul’s sufferings have been transformed to a fountain of grace and blessing not only for his own “race set before him”, but for his ministry to the world. For St Paul, to suffer is to share in the sufferings of Christ, and for a follower of Christ, this is the ultimate goal. 

If we dare to imitate Christ, this is a calling to participate in the crucifixion and resurrection of our Lord. There would have been no impact from His ministry, healings, or words if not crowned by the Crucifixion and Resurrection. St Paul lived this in every single way possible. In perseverance of prayer and thanksgiving in the midst of a dark and lonely prison, in accepting his own weakness in order for the strength of Christ to be made perfect through him, in his joyful acceptance of every single tribulation that befell him, knowing that “they have turned out for the furtherance of the gospel.” To add to that, not only was his acceptance of tribulation joyful, it drove him to love his neighbour even more, accepting the lost and the sinner just as Christ did, in recognition of his own beginnings. 

St Paul was truly a man of his and The Word. His life is a manifestation of his words “for to live is Christ, and to die is gain.” He had one guarantee, death, as we all do. Yet Christ transformed this life. St Paul’s time on earth was a life lived fully in the arms of Christ, his joy and purpose fuelled by the love of his Lord and His Word. Yet he lived his life in all joy, love and hope knowing that an even greater, more intimate life with Christ awaited him. That is what the Gospel offers us. The transformation of our current life into a life lived in Christ, and the transformation of our death into eternal life. Living with that in mind, the trials of life, it’s sufferings, setbacks, failures, sin, corruption….they all take on new meaning. A transformed meaning. 

Let us learn from St Paul,  that in whatever state we are in to abide in Christ. If in lockdown, let us learn to pray unceasingly and give thanks, redeeming the time in exchange for a taste of life with our Lord. Let us learn to use our pain in the pursuit of loving others, to treat others with the same measure of immense gentleness and mercy that Christ has poured on us.

Written in Heaven

Written in Heaven

Adapted from a sermon by Fr Elijah Iskander


Reading Luke 10:1-20

The Lord prepares the seventy to go out, and gives them a series of key instructions. These are pivotal to the Christian that wants to see the Hand of God in their life.

Go Two by Two

This may seem like an insufficient way to deliver a message across a large area. To go two by two would half the amount of people reached. In Ecclesiastes 4:9, we read, “Two are better than one, Because they have a good reward for their labor. For if they fall, one will lift up his companion. But woe to him who is alone when he falls, For he has no one to help him up.”

Two are better than one for if I fall, the one that is by my side will lift me up again. The apostles had these instructions in their mind very clearly. Even when St Paul and St Barnabas served together and had a disagreement and wanted to part ways, they still did not go alone. St Paul took Silas, and St Barnabas took St Mark, as a matter of necessity.

The Lord loves our unity. We learn that in the liturgy as well. The Liturgy cannot happen without a priest, a deacon and a congregation – at least three gathered together. The Lord loves us to be united with each other, so that we are united in Him also.

In the prayer of reconciliation, we exchange a holy kiss and the Lord reminds us that if you have a problem with another, you must reconcile with that person before you come to the altar.

During the liturgy, we know that the priest will say, “Pray,” and the deacon will respond, “Stand up for prayer.” There is a slight variation in Coptic to this, where the priest will say, “Esh-leel eflogison.” This is say, “pray, and you bless,” directed toward the other priest. If there are multiple priests present, the priest praying may say, “Esh-leel eflogite,” which is, “pray and they bless.” It’s a very subtle but very blessed difference.

In the Spirituality of the Rites of the Holy Liturgy by Bishop Matteous, he writes about the “secret handshake” the priests do when one of them is offering incense around the church. One priest is taking all the prayers of the congregation when he goes around the church but he sees another priest and offers him the fellowship of incense, as if to say, “pray with me, Abouna.”

The aim of offering incense to clergymen, in general, is to involve them all in the offering of incense and in raising their prayers and supplications to the Lord. This intention can be seen in the incensing priest’s request of his associate which asks the associate to pray for him, while they offer incense to the Lord together, coupled with a supplication for the Lord’s assistance. This is known as the ‘Fellowship of Incense’.

The Lord loves us to be united two by two. Another key reason why the Lord would want us to be in fellowship is the very next reason.

Lamb among wolves

Behold, I send you out as lambs among wolves” – Luke 10:3.

Not because we are weaker than those around us, but alluding to the prophecy in Isaiah; “The wolf and the lamb shall feed together” – Isaiah 65:25.

The wolves will be converted into lambs, so as these lambs go out two by two and face harshness, they need to overcome that with the gentleness of lambs. I might need somebody to support me, correct me, ensure my ways do not reflect the wolves around me but the gentleness of the Lord.

Sent to the Gentiles

There are a few interesting instructions that could not be directed toward the Jews. Food is mentioned twice – “And remain in the same house, eating and drinking such things as they give” (Luke 10:7) and “Whatever city you enter, and they receive you, eat such things as are set before you” (Luke 10:8).

Why does the Lord seem preoccupied with what they eat? Not just this, but another interesting instruction is given to greet no one on the road. The Lord was preparing them for a mission to the Gentiles.

If a Jewish person was invited to a meal, they could not eat with Gentiles, or the uncleanness of their food. The Lord now says to eat the food that is put before them. This goes hand in hand with the next instruction to greet no one along the road. This is so that no human traditions get in the way of the mission. They have somewhere to be that cannot be hindered.

A visiting bishop was invited into the home of one of the priests. They all gathered together to prepare a meal for him. Just before he arrived, he rang the priest and said he could not come. He had a more urgent service to attend to. The priest was so pleased with this response, because he could see that he had a mission. He was there for a purpose, and he could not allow the social conventions to get in the way of his mission. The Lord prepared the disciples to be extremely focused on their mission.

The Lord then gives them authority – “He who hears you hears Me, he who rejects you rejects Me, and he who rejects Me rejects Him who sent Me” – Luke 10:16. This is the height of all dignity. The apostles leave and are happy and say, “Lord, even the demons are subject to us in Your name.”

The response of our Lord is not what His disciples were expecting. This was no easy mission that the disciples had signed up for. When they return with joy, we expect the Lord to respond in joy also. The Lord tells them, “Behold, I give you the authority to trample on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy, and nothing shall by any means hurt you. Nevertheless do not rejoice in this, that the spirits are subject to you, but rather rejoice because your names are written in heaven.”

He tells them that they are happy for the wrong reasons. St Cyril of Alexandria comments of this saying, “The Lord was a Farmer, taking out the weed of pride and love of authority before its roots were deep.” In our ministry we must do the same. We must not seek the praise of others. We should be happy when we see miracles, but this does not override the happiness in being the child of the Lord. I have done my duty as a servant of the Lord.

Let us pray together in our homes, let us reach out to those who have the same struggles as us. To the one that is living alone. To the other with kids stuck at home. To the one struggling financially. Go to another that is in the same position as you.

Let us greet no one along the road. We have the chance to do what is pleasing to the Lord, so let us not become distracted. We are numbered among those chosen by the Lord, so let this remain our focus above all else.

Fr Mark’s Top 5 Tips to Avoid Judgement

Fr Mark’s Top 5 Tips to Avoid Judgement

Adapted from a sermon by Fr Mark Basily


Reading Luke 6:27-38

Judge not, and you shall not be judged. Condemn not, and you shall not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven.” – Luke 6:37.

Such a simple approach to passing through judgement, yet this causes us to wonder, what is judging?

St Paul defines judgement during the end time saying, “Therefore judge nothing before the time, until the Lord comes, who will both bring to light the hidden things of darkness and reveal the counsels of the hearts” – 1 Corinthians 4:5.

St Paul is saying that we cannot judge anything before it’s due time. The time will be due when the Lord comes in the end times. Christ is the judge and He is the One that brings forth to light the hidden things of darkness and reveals the counsels of the hearts.

To judge is to expose the heart of somebody. Who could ever expose the heart of another? For us to judge one another, we are taking the place of God. We assume that we can expose the heart of another. At its core, to judge somebody is to elevate one’s self above another. We cannot judge, as we are not God and do not know what dwells in the hearts of others.

When we begin to judge another, we are in a state of confusion. There are five key confusions that cause us to judge others wrongly.

CONFUSING YOURSELF WITH ANOTHER PERSON

 I can see myself as an individual. The lens that I view others in is skewed by what is inside me. When I judge someone, I begin to notice flaws in my own character. We can use these thoughts of judgement as a mirror of what is going on inside of me. We see what we are.

A man lived in a large apartment block that was parallel to another apartment block. One night he was looking outside his window and could see inside the window of another apartment. As looked into the adjacent lounge room, he was struck by what he saw in that lounge room. He thought to himself, “why don’t they get a new couch? It’s so old and falling apart. Why don’t they at least clean it? How would you even sit on it?”

Soon he realised, it wasn’t actually a window that he was look into, but a mirror – a reflection – of his own living room. He never realised his own couch was a mess until he thought it was somebody else’s. We do the same thing when we look at the lives of other people in a judgemental way, not realising that what we are seeing is a reflection of our own weaknesses and flaws. We can use our judgement to self-reflect of what is deeply hidden inside of us.

WISHING OTHERS WOULD CHANGE

If I look to my spouse or my children and I see something in them that I wish they would change. My colleagues at work annoy me and I wish they would change the way they do things. Society is a mess, and we wish they would change their views. Alas, we shouldn’t confuse the order of change. Change doesn’t begin with others, it begins with me. I am the one that needs to be changing.

An Anglican bishop wanted the following inscribed on his tombstone, “when I was young and free, my imagination had no limits and I dreamed of changing the world. As I grew older, I discovered the world would not change. I decided to shorten my sights and decided to change only my country, but it seemed immovable. As I entered my twilight years, I settled for changing only my family. Alas, they would have none of it. Now, as I lie on my death bed, I realise, if only I changed myself first then by example, I would have changed my family. From their inspiration and encouragement, I would have been able to better my country, and who knows, maybe even the world.” Change begins with one’s self. We shouldn’t worry about changing others, but to focus on what I can do.

CONFUSING EARTHLY BEAUTY WITH SPIRITUAL BEAUTY

 We often assess things by their earthly beauty and appeal. We need to look deeper and assess their spiritual beauty. We are all created in God’s image. Christ saw the beauty in all – the criminals, the prostitutes and the sinners alike. Christ sees the beauty in me, too.

When we are dealing with anybody, we can look deeper for the beauty within, for we know it is there according to the image of Christ. We cannot let our eyes search for the wrong, but for the beauty.

There was a monk visiting the cells of the other monks. He enters one that is clean and tidy and organised. He is so impressed and thinks this monk must be so holy, organising his spiritual life the same way he organises his cell. He visits another monk’s cell and sees a mess, nothing in its rightful place. He thinks, “wow, this monk must be so holy, he pays no attention to the things of this world, he must be so fixated on his spiritual life.” The monk was able to find beauty despite opposing conditions.

CONFUSING PROCESS WITH FULFILMENT

When we judge someone, we can sometimes act like that this how a person will always be – this is there end. All of us are on a journey, we are going through a process. A person may have a certain weakness now, but this is just a part of their journey. Every masterpiece takes time. Imagine judging an artist’s work before it is complete, with rough edges, uneven lines, a face without all its features. What a mess. The artist would tell you to wait, they’re not finished yet, this all part of the process. When we judge someone in the middle of their life, we must wait, they are a masterpiece that is not yet completed.

St John Climacus once said, “Do not condemn, even if you see with your eyes, for they are often deceived.”

CONFUSING ACTION WITH ESSENCE

Until the Lord comes, the hidden will be brought to light. This is the essence of someone. We deal with people that disappoint us, we judge and we condemn, without understanding the essence of that person.

There is more than just do not judge and you won’t be judged, but there is more in a reward. “Give, and it will be given to you: good measure, pressed down, shaken together, and running over will be put into your bosom. For with the same measure that you use, it will be measured back to you” – Luke 8:38.

The reward is equal to what we give. I hate when you buy a drink and they fill it with so much ice that the drink is finished after only a few sips. Now I ask for no ice, so I can enjoy it fully. The measure of ice is so tight that it consumes the space for the drink. We give in the same way. We forgive, but we forgive with ice. We give to each other, but with ice. God is telling us to remove the ice. Remove the coldness. God can give us in abundance, but we must also give in abundance.

An Unshakeable Trust

Adapted from a sermon by H.E. Archbishop Angelos


Our Lord speaks to His disciples and says, “those who have riches, cannot enter into The Kingdom.” (Matthew 19:23)

And this leaves them confused. What do riches have to do with The Kingdom? 

Then our Lord clarifies. He says, Children, how hard it is for those who trust in riches to enter the kingdom of God!” (Mark 10:24).

Trust is something we cannot go through life without experiencing to some degree. Depending on what we trust in, we find varying difficulties that come with trust. It is easy to trust, but there is fear that our trust is misplaced and will lead to our demise.

What do we trust in?  How do we trust? 

This year, like many, many things, we are evaluating and re-evaluating many things. One of them is trust… 

We have trusted in so much in the past. We trusted in our political systems. We have trusted in our economical systems. We have trusted even in our health systems. We have trusted in our education. We have trusted in our welfare. We have trusted in SO much, and THAT became our foundation. We felt living in certain communities, if we had these safeguards, if we had these institutions, if we had these systems, we were safe. What could possibly go wrong? We looked at other countries that didn’t have these things and thought, “you can’t be safe! Because you don’t have our safeguards. You don’t have the things we trust in.” Yet, when everything fell, where was our trust? 

It is interesting that during this time we have had places of worship open and close and yet there has been a greater apartness from governments, authorities, leaders and policy makers to keep our churches open, our places of worship open. 

Why? 

Because, they found that those who have trust in OTHER things, live a stronger life. They live more affirmed, they live more confident and comforted. They found that when people trust in things that go beyond what is visible in this world it gives greater stability and strength and security. So we found that our trust, OUR trust, was more than just in those things. That’s why in the gospels we read, when we are tested through fire and through water, we will be saved. The fire and water we have experienced during this year is beyond anyone’s expectation, beyond anyone’s understanding, beyond anyone’s ability.

Even if we were asked at the beginning to actually withstand it. Yet, we have come through it. We are still moving through it. Why is that? Because our trust is in so much more. Our trust was, and continues to be in a God who is not changed by pandemic. He is not shaped by catastrophes. He is not affected by ‘ifs.’ His interest does not increase and decrease in humanity based on what we are experiencing. His abilities do not increase and decrease based on experiences around him. He is above all, He is all in all. That’s why when our trust is in Him, it is unshakeable. It is immovable. It is indestructible. Because it is a trust based on things beyond this world. 

Imagine if someone had his or her trust ONLY on riches. What would be their situation today if they had lost all their riches, or their work. If someone’s trust was only in his or her strength, what would happen if they lost that strength. That’s why our Lord says, “those who trust in riches…” 

Yes, we must trust in things around us. We trust people, loved ones around us, family, friends, community, our clergy, our servants. We trust them. Yes, we trust in the systems around us. I trust that when a light is red in front of me, I stop, and when it’s green it is safe to drive. I trust in the fact that when I look at my house, no one should break in because there is a system of law and order. In this country I trust that if I become sick, I will go to hospital and I will be treated. We must trust in those things, but we cannot trust ONLY in those things. They cannot be the foundation in our trust, because with all those things (as much as we did not expect it) those things have actually moved and changed. Those things that we held at the core of our identity have shifted.

And yet, God is immovable.

So the message we have today is from our Lord through this young man in the gospel whom he tells “go sell what you have…give to the poor, give all that up and follow me.” Because if you want to inherit The Kingdom, yes you can have all those things, but if you don’t follow Me then none of that will help you. So as we live today’s life, let us enjoy what we have, let us be thankful for it, be thankful for our health, for our lives, be thankful for our family, our friends, our community, our work, be thankful for all we have because it is all given BY God. It is not wrong, it is not bad, it is not evil. These are all things given to us by God, enjoy them! Enjoy them in the understanding that at the root of all of this, at its foundation is God. If God is separated from any of it, then it becomes a distraction, it becomes an obstacle, it becomes a false hope, it becomes a false security, it becomes a false confidence. Because our confidence is in that which is immovable. 

When a huge ship has to come into port and they have to stop, it’s thousands of tonnes, it has to be tied and moored with something that is solid. We need to be tied and moored to that which is solid. Our God is the port of our salvation. He is the anchor of our faith. He is the security we have at all times in all things. In Him, and in Him alone, is the confidence that will never be shaken, the comfort that will never be taken away, the peace that cannot be stolen and the life that he has given us can never be conquered by anything else.

For in Him is life, hope and resurrection.  

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